2008 in retrospect,

I can't help but be amazed at what 2008 has brought me.

2008 has seen me survive my internship (where I met a horrible senior but really nice colleagues), get over people, get closer to the people around me and especially so for the case of my classmates, lesser but always memorable meetups with my 2 girls, survive through the number of projects that are always piling, quit and get another better paying job. It has seen me made big decisions before finally settling down. 2008 saw me have one of the best birthdays in my life, overseas trip without the family (read: hk trip), meet up sessions, have long conversations about what to do in life. 2008 also marked my last tertiary year. 2008, I made great friends, and lost a couple.

2008, as dramatic as this year may be, I've managed to live this year without regrets. I wouldn't change anything in the year given a chance to.

As 2008 draws to an end, I can only look forward to a better 2009.

New year resolutions?
I don't have one.
I don't believe in waiting for a new year to make changes in my life.

thorns & roses

I saw the photos tonight, and I'm glad that you 2 had fun today. I'm glad that you've each other for support whenever a situation takes place. But I'm never in that "zone" that probably had been created. I'm beginning to see that I'm outside, and that when situations happen, some invisible band draws across us and I'm like a complete stranger.

Everytime I think of it, I can't help but cry. I guess I've long forgotten how it is like to be in it. And to be honest, I wish that many years ago, I was wise enough to stop changes from happening. To bring this whole thing up again, I must say I totally regret how everything is now. Maybe if some things are not the way they are now, everything else will be different. I long for support as well.

I know I'm not the sweet talker, I know in bad situations I cannot bring myself to apologize. Perhaps my whole being has been instilled in your mind already. Like how you always say, "You won't do this you won't do that", its as if nothing I do can change my image in your mind anymore. But did you guys forget, I'm just human, and I've feelings.

Now sometimes I can only put myself to blame for whatever that happened.

I dwell over the past, and I allow myself to live in regrets. That's just me. And if any of you get to see this someday, trust me, I've tried to amend whatever I feel I've done wrong, and I don't feel good about all these either.

XXXmas!

Hello there, its been a long time since there are pictures posted here! Chalet pics + Xmas 08 :D

Just 2 from 01's class chalet


Xmas 08 has been pretty well spent, I really love Christmas time its my favourite time of the year! :D

I met up with my two best friends on the 20th at downtown east for angus, thongs & perfect snogging, gift exchange, drinks, and dinner!

1. LOL at HQ
2. LOL at HQ
3. What's up cats?
4. BFF <3

1. Thanks for the brown wallet! :D
2. Hope you like your jewellerybox & eyemask!
3. idk idk idk
4. Seriously, the present's way better than the watson's wrapper right?!

3. "Wah lao! Eunice, you really very tall leh!"
2. "Ok lah ok lah, I be shorter this time!"

LOL at these pictures reallyyyy.

4. Sorry, Alv*n! :D

Caption says it all :D :D :D

Thanks for the really beautiful card.

1. ANGELA!! show these to ALEX! there are coins insideeee :D
2. My presentsss yay!
3. This is so damn cute it nods/shakes head in response to what I say.
4. + tee + card

As much as Christmas this year was quite awesome, it can definitely be better. I hate to say this, but all of a sudden, I don't feel like I belong here anymore. I dread coming home, I don't feel any love anymore. These few days I'm almost non existence, and this is making life so damn hard for me.

And, arguing over MSN is the worst thing on earth. Who the heck quarrels over freaking internet?

I wish you understood me better. :(

Happy belated Christmas, 2009 must be better for me already :(

B

This is about work and I'm going to rant so continue reading if you absolutely want to,

Been there for 3 weeks now, and I've only come to realize today that the colleagues (well, so called) can be really fake. And by saying that, I'm trying to mean that only a handful of them are not double-faced. Some of them just disgust me the way they turn their back (for the matter, not when managers are around) and their smiles disappear in what, 0.1 second? And I'm not referring to those situations where the manager makes you do something stupid and you sulk behind her, because honestly I admit, I tend to do that - sulk when the manager's not looking when she makes me do something dumb.

And these days, I find myself walking around the store, sometimes aimlessly, putting back the books that are already in place. I just fiddle with the stuff or stare into space until I get something to do. Gosh.

And if things are not bad enough, I've got a paper cut on my index finger. And another small cut on my thumb. Yes, bring it on man.

Last week of hols, that's the only time to 'live in own world' until reality hits - the MST results, IAP, Gems (!!!)

Ohmygod.

w xmas?

Today must be one of those fckedup days that I wanna scream into my pillow.

Suddenly I've no idea what this Christmas is gonna bring. It is way different from what I initially planned it out to be. I've ranted over the same thing to 4 different people today and I still don't feel any better. I still feel very frustrated and having to wake up at 7am tmr doesn't help at all. And you know what, being broke is even worse.

Thank God for the few of you (you guys know who you are), the 2 best friend, and the special person and the family, they save me from insanity.

In the meantime, I hope life for you is better than me :)

been long,

Its been some time!

Basically my life has been revolved around work & play these days. The MST papers are all over and as much as I'm glad I can put books down for some time, I totally dread getting back the results. And honestly, I don't mind having the MST rewinded :( I really want those AFA marks!

I've started work for more than a week now, and I'm glad to say I'm finally getting myself settled into the current situation. It has been quite busy these days cos of the festive season but honestly, I'm quite enjoying being at Information Counter. Having to repeat, "Hi thank you for calling _____" is somewhat tiring but fun, and meeting dumbf customers are worse but I'm willing to settle with all these. Come 7th Jan, my bank balance (as well as myself) will be beaming!

Christmas is coming, and I've been gift shopping and being very excited about it. My schedule book is totally packed with work and meetups and I love this whole feeling.

Goodnight for now, I'm very happy with life now.

un

If nothingness comes out of us, who's going to continue to accompany me to stuff popeye's biscuit into my mouth in an attempt to compete to be the fastest eater, obviously knowing that the biscuit is hard to digest? Who's going to make a mess out of the whole place and say we eat like dogs? And who's going to let me poke and take retarded pictures with?

:(

Dearest (iii)

Today was extremely screwed up at the start and I must be the stupidest I've ever been in a very long time. I woke up 2 hours earlier to get ready for my training today, and I don't know for what reason I only manage to leave my house at 8am, and I need to reach by 9am. So I waited for bus 15 for say, 10 mins and there was no sign of the bus coming, and I decide to text HQ. So 10 mins into waiting for one bus, I walked back to my house and walked to the interchange to take bus 31. So the bus came and I happily board the bus without knowing that bus 31A stops at tanah merah, and by then I was already very frustrated with myself, and I don't know for what reason (again) I took another bus to go to bedok, alight, and take a cab to Parkway. I could have taken the cab at tanah merah, from tampines knowing that maybe I'll be late. And the whole damn trip to work costed me 10 over bucks. I know baby, I'm such a dumbf. And I swear I've never felt so lost and clueless that I decide to just take the damn cab.

Training was, lonely. Everyone had a friend our dear manager didn't call my friend. But I have nobody, except HQ during lunch, which was oh thank god. Honestly HQ's so damn sweet and I'm gonna put her as priority over you :) kidding.

I haven't studied, I'm lazy to even begin :(